The Why Behind the What: Cameras, Community, and the Stewardship of Memory

Recently, I found myself deep down rabbit hole comparing cameras, gimbals, flying cameras, drones, batteries, storage drives, and enough accessories to make my Amazon cart question all my life choices.

I was preparing myself for Amazon prime day and the competing sales that pop up (I did find something good before and it ended up even better later but that’s another post for later🤓😉).

At first glance, it could have looked like I was trying to decide what new thing to buy next just buy something🫠.

But somewhere along the way, I realized I wasn’t really thinking about the cameras at all.

One of my latest purchases🙃

As a whole, I was contemplating about stewardship.

Growing up, my Mommy has always told me:

“Know the why behind the what.”

That lesson has stayed with me my entire life.

Not only did I grow up in the church, my Daddy was faithful in his service to his church until right before he passed. It’s wasn’t lost on me what leadership and stewardship meant from a young age so I have been around that word a long time.

As I’ve gotten older, I’ve learned that many of our decisions become clearer when we understand the reasoning behind them. That purchase. Those goals. The dream you have. That project. The journey. The what is easy to see. That why usually takes a little more digging.

For a while, I thought I was simply becoming a content creator.

Trying my hand at cinematic video at the Metro

But that’s not exactly all of it.

What actually excites me isn’t the cameras themselves. It’s the vessel that allows me to capture and preserve Us.

The laughter.

The conversations.

The rides.

The gatherings.

The everyday moments that seem ordinary today but become a part of history tomorrow.

As a Black woman born and raised in and around the Washington, DC area, I’ve watched neighborhoods shift and change; people come and go; traditions evolve or evaporate; and communities continue to create joy in spite of every challenge placed before them.

I have also seen communties uprooted and eradicated and only the memories and photographies in someone’s grandmother’s home hold what used to be but will never be no more.

So much of our story gets told by other people.

So much of our history gets reduced to headlines.

So much of our humanity gets flattened into stereotypes.

But when you document your own community from the inside, something different happens.

You preserve the feelings.

Not just what happened.

But what it felt like to be there.

What it felt like to laugh with friends.

What it felt like to ride through the city.

What it felt like to gather, celebrate, and simply exist. Just be.

That’s why I became excited about documenting Stunt Sundays, community events, DC culture, family moments, and everyday regular boring life.

Not because every moment is extraordinary.

But because ordinary moments become extraordinary with time.

One day, my children and their children may watch these videos.

I want them to see how we lived.

How we spoke.

How we dressed.

How we gathered.

How we loved.

How we built community.

All this thinking made me realize that documentation itself can be another form of stewardship.

Not just stewardship of money.

Or property.

But stewardship of memory.

Stewardship of culture.

Stewardship of connection.

Stewardship of legacy.

The cameras are simply the vehicle for the feelings.

The real goal is preserving our presence and our essence.

And that’s my whys behind my what.

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The Matcha-Tirzepatide Combo That’s Changing My Life

So as of this post, I’ve just completed (or am about to complete) my twelfth week on this journey, and honestly, so far so good! For those who are curious, I’m currently using compound tirzepatide sourced from Brello, and I have to say, it’s been remarkably comparable to my experience with Zepbound (sorry not sorry to the brand loyalists! 😉😂😂😂).

It’s actually quite fitting that I’m sharing this update today, as it’s a special day – a very happy 70th birthday to my wonderful mom! There is something planned for her, and it is a slight last minute and a surprise. You will learn soon on this blog, but we hate surprises, so it will be told to her the night before. This milestone has me reflecting on the importance of health and well-being at every stage of life.

My weekend was also a whirlwind of joyful activity. As a prospect for my social club, I had a busy day at the National Harbor/Oxon Hill immersed in doing a photoshoot. Hanging out with this group has left me in stitches and gave my core a much-needed workout. I hope to be able to name and mention them on the blog soon, but until then, know I am having fun. On top of that, I attended a celebration in honor of a cousin in law’s one-year wedding anniversary! It was a beautiful reminder of the love and support I have in my life. It was also so great to see family who I haven’t seen in a long time since the divorce, but who I still love in my heart dearly.

Of course, no journey is without its little quirks, and I’ve definitely experienced the usual side effects – let’s be real, constipation has become a familiar friend (too much information? Maybe! 😉). But I’ve been proactive about it, making sure my fiber intake is consistently on point. My morning ritual now includes a powerful trio: Miralax, collagen, and natural fiber powder in my beloved morning matcha. Speaking of which, if you want to see my ode to this green goodness, head over to my Instagram or TikTok @lifewithessieb for a fun montage! The switch to a matcha latte with almond milk has been a game-changer for my energy levels. I can actually power through my daily tasks now without that dreaded afternoon crash and burn I used to know all too well. As a busy mom of three – a 19-year-old, a 14-year-old, and my energetic 8-year-old – that sustained energy is a huge win, especially with such a packed schedule lately!

Beyond the energy boost, getting my sleep in order has also been a significant positive in this chapter of my life. Since the past five years brought on a cascade of changes, including weight gain and those lovely diagnoses like ADHD, hypothyroidism, prediabetes, and insulin resistance, my health has felt… well, dicey at times. It often leaves me pondering that classic chicken and the egg conundrum: Did the weight gain precede the onset of these illnesses, or were the underlying conditions always there, gradually leading to weight increase? It’s a question I’m still exploring, and I know many of you can probably relate to that feeling of your body shifting and trying to understand why.

This journey with tirzepatide feels like I’m finally gaining some ground in navigating these health challenges. It’s not just about the number on the scale; it’s about feeling more energetic, managing those underlying conditions, and ultimately, feeling more like myself again, especially with the demands of my social life and family. On a completely different note, I recently caught the new movie “Sinners” and will be sharing my thoughts on it in a separate post soon, offering I hope a bit of a different perspective. Stay tuned for more updates on both my health journey and my cinematic reflections!

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